Chapter 1025: The Dispute over Ideas (II)
He was right about that much.
Whatever May might say about Kajen Fels’s assumptions, whatever his mistakes about her motives or his blindness about Neverwinter — this, at least, was unchanged. He still held the pure faith that had made him great. It was the same faith that let him be frank with a junior he was asking for a favor, instead of hiding the frankness in politeness. He still believed that someone who truly loved drama would rearrange their life to make room for a perfect play.
She should have been able to say yes.
Something stopped her.
May closed her eyes. A voice reached her from somewhere behind recent memory.
Mrs. Lannis, please wait —
This is a small token of my gratitude. Please do accept it —
The smell of salt. A salted fish pressed into her hands.
She understood, then, what was stopping her.
She opened her eyes and held Kajen’s gaze. This time she didn’t look away.
There was a certain kind of answer she could give — graceful, respectful, tactically sound. Praise him first, let the but arrive gently, explain that the magic movie was categorically unlike ordinary drama, that it was made under imperial mandate, that he simply didn’t understand Neverwinter’s particular situation yet. All of it would be technically true. She’d use his evident affection for craft and redirect it into something he could accept without losing face.
But that was just a more sophisticated form of evasion, and she knew it.
“Mr. Kajen — is this play made only for His Majesty?”
“And the nobles, ministers, and lords attending the ceremony,” he said. “A play without the right audience loses its meaning, however fine the work.”
Gold with jewels; fine wine with exquisite cups. Only a careful and attentive audience could receive the full precision of what the actors intended. She understood this argument. She had once lived entirely inside it.
“Then I’m sorry,” May said. “I can’t make that promise. Because your drama won’t be perfect.”
Kajen’s eyes sharpened. “You haven’t seen it. What gives you that judgment?”
“Because the audience will enjoy it however it goes,” May said, and she felt something rise in her — not anger, not bravado, but a kind of grounded certainty. “They’ll applaud and speak of it over afternoon tea. But that’s where it ends. The play is one entertainment among many, and their lives will be exactly the same whether they saw it or not. How do you call something perfect if it can be removed from a life without leaving a mark?”
The old man scowled. His drama was his child; he would not accept this easily. “I thought fame had blinded you — I didn’t expect arrogance. Are you telling me you’ve seen a perfect drama?”
“No,” May said. “But I know what one should look like.”
He waited. His authority was vast and settled, the kind that had made junior actors stumble over themselves for decades. May felt it. She stood in it.
And she did not back away.
Whatever she was about to say would cost her. This was the point where she stepped off the road that people like Roentgen recognized, the road that led to the stage at the right ceremony with the right audience, the road she’d been on since she was sixteen and first understood what she wanted. She’d lose people. She’d earn the kind of criticism that doesn’t fade. She’d become incomprehensible to almost everyone in the drama world who had trained for the same thing she’d trained for.
But it’s worth fighting for.
“A great drama shouldn’t be an entertainment that nobles seek when they’re bored,” she said. “It deserves more. Sometimes it changes people’s fates.”
She let that settle, then continued.
“The Witches’ Story helped people understand what a witch is — so witches could begin to be free of a stigma they’d carried for nothing. Dawn showed people what working meant, and what getting out of hunger looked like — and people started to. New City taught new migrants the rules of Neverwinter in a way that felt like living inside them, and it rooted out Rats who’d been hiding in plain sight.” She paused. “The Hero’s Life —”
She let the pause hold.
“Helped a sad girl get back on her feet,” she finished. “I know there are many people who lost everything in the war. Even one person helped — that matters to me. Even one.”
“What exactly are you saying?” Kajen’s voice had lost some of its edge. Something in it was genuinely waiting now, rather than bracing.
“You told me the finest drama lets the audience identify with what a character experiences,” May said. “I want more than that. I want the audience to see their own future inside it. Nobles can find other jewels and other cups when theirs are empty. My drama is the food that feeds people who have nothing else.”
For the first time, Kajen had nothing immediate to say.
“I don’t doubt your new play will be extraordinary,” May said. “Two years of preparation, from a man of your gifts — I believe it. And I also believe that The Wolf Princess will be equally extraordinary, for different reasons, from a company that’s been working less than two months, some of us having never acted before.” She curtsied. “If you still hold your original view after you see it, I’ll personally recommend your new play to His Majesty.”
The cold hit her when she stepped out of the Whistling Hotel, sharp and clarifying. Her steps were lighter.
At the mouth of the alley, Carter was leaning against the wall.
“Why are you here?” she said, genuinely startled.
“Irene told me you’d left with one of Kajen’s people.” He shrugged. “I was worried. Also, I need to stop at the Convenience Market for dinner.”
“Right.” She glanced at him sidelong. “Did you know what happened at the hotel the first time?”
“You ate less than usual that night,” he said, with the serene self-satisfaction of a man who considers himself observant.
She stopped walking. “Carter — did you speak to City Hall about Kajen Troupe’s performance application? Did you have it rejected?”
He blinked. “What? Whose application did I reject?”
She studied his face for a long moment, then exhaled. “Nothing. Never mind.”
“Are you keeping something from me again?”
“It isn’t important.” She laughed. “You haven’t bought the ingredients yet, have you?”
“No. What do you want?”
“Salted fish.”
He stared. “Salted fish? You’ve always disliked pickled things. It took you days to finish the fish that girl gave you last time.”
“I like it now,” May said. “Do you have a problem with that?” She extended her right hand to him. “Are you coming or not?”
Carter Lannis took her hand without a moment’s hesitation. “Whatever you want.”
Chapter 1025: The Dispute over Ideas (II)
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He was right.
May could tell that Kajen Fels did not change. At least, he still stuck to his pure faith in dramas, the exact faith that made him so frank to her and still stick to his opinion even though he was asking for her help.
In Kajen’s opinion, someone who sincerely loved drama was sure to make room for a perfect play.
But she found that she could not easily answer “yes”.
Something had stopped her.
May closed her eyes, the girl’s voice coming back to her ears.
“Mrs. Lannis, please wait…”
“This is a little token of my gratitude. Please do accept it…”
Then a salted fish was handed over to her.
At that moment, May understood what was stopping her.
She opened her eyes and held the Master Dramatist’s gaze.
This time, she would not evade the issue anymore.
There was so much rhetoric she could put in her answer to make it sound both polite and pleasant. First, she could compliment him, and then she might use the “but” to explain the fact that the magic movie was utterly different from the ordinary dramas and was made under an imperial order.
Kajen Fels knew almost nothing about Neverwinter, nor did he have any idea of the peculiarity of Star Flower Troupe and how much His Majesty had valued those dramas she had played. He had made a mistake from the very beginning. If she could make him understand how wrong he was, it might be a good time to clear up any misapprehensions between them and even change Kajen’s bad impression of her.
But May knew in her heart that it was just another kind of evading.
“Mr. Kajen, have you prepared the show only for His Majesty?”
“And the nobles, ministers, and lords who will participate in the ceremony,” Kajen said, nodding. “A show will lose its meaning without the matching audience, no matter how wonderful it is.”
Like gold matching with jewels and fine wine with exquisite cups, only the careful and attentive audience could understand the very meaning of the actors’ every expression and action and appreciate the true perfection of the play.
That was true.
“Then I’m sorry that I can’t promise you,” May said seriously, “because your drama will by no means be perfect.”
“Wha-what?” The old man frowned. “What makes you say so? You haven’t seen it.”
“Because the audience will just enjoy the show however wonderful it is,” May said and she felt the strength upwelling from the bottom of her heart. “They’ll applaud, praise, and talk about it perhaps when they’re enjoying their afternoon tea. But that’s all. The play is just one of numerous
entertainments, and their life will be just the same whether they see it or not. How could you call a thing perfect if it’s dispensable to people?”
Kajen Fels scowled. For a creator, his drama was like a child to him and he would never accept such a remark easily. “I thought your pursuit of fame has blinded you, but I didn’t expect that kind of arrogance from you. So, are you telling me that you’ve seen a perfect drama?”
“I haven’t,” May said frankly. “But I know what it should be like.”
Kajen looked into her eyes, his gaze sharp as knives. Years of experience had given him an imposing aura of authority, which was intimidating to every junior in the drama circle.
He was obviously waiting for her explanation, but May knew that no answer would please him.
She did not retreat.
There was no doubt that what she was about to say would result in her parting most of her fellows in the drama circle and taking a path that none of them had ever seen nor could understand. By then, the criticism on her would be much worse or even lead to breaking off all the relationships between her and those people.
She was going to pay a high price, wasn’t she?
She asked herself.
There was a voice answering her.
But it’s worth fighting for.
May answered, “A great drama shouldn’t be something just for people to enjoy or an entertainment that the nobles would seek only when they’re free. It deserves more than that. Sometimes it can even change people’s fate.”
“‘The Witch Diaries’ helped people to understand what a witch is so that the witches could clear the stigma they didn’t deserve. ‘Dawn’ encouraged
people to work and get rid of poverty and hunger so that many people could start a much better life. ‘New City’ intuitively showed the new migrants how to comply with the rules of Neverwinter, and rooted out the Rats that had hidden in them. ‘The Hero’s Life’…”
She paused and said slowly, “helped a sad girl to get back on her feet and start a new life. I know that there are many people who lost their families in the war. I’m very glad that my drama could give them help, no matter how many people could benefit from it.”
“What exactly are you trying to say?” Kajen asked grimly.
“You told me that the most excellent drama was able to let the watchers identify with what the character had experienced in their life, but I want more. I want my drama to help the audience see their own future,” May said honestly. “The nobles could always find alternatives to the jewels and exquisite cups if they lack them, while my drama is the food that can feed up a lot of people.”
For the first time, her words reduced Kajen to silence.
“I have no doubt that your drama will be very exciting after two years of preparation, but I’m also confident that the upcoming ‘Wolf Princess’ will be equally mind-blowing. We only spent more than a month on rehearsal and some of us haven’t even acted before, but, still, it’ll be the best drama I’ve ever seen.” May curtsied and went on, “If you still hold to your original opinion about our drama after you watch it, then I’ll recommend your new play to His Majesty for you.”
May felt much better after she had left the Whistling Hotel, to the point even her steps became springy.
Just as she stepped out of the alley, she saw Carter Lannis waiting on the street.
“Why are you here?” May was surprised.
“Irene told me that you left with Mr. Kajen’s man. I’m a little worried.” Carter shrugged. “After all, I’m going to stop by the Convenience Market to buy some food for dinner.”
“Really?” May glanced at him. “Have you already known what had happened at the hotel that day?”
“You ate less that night. It was obvious to me.” Chief Knight said proudly.
“Hang on…” She stopped abruptly. “Did you ask City Hall to reject Kajen Troupe’s application for his performance?”
“Ah?” Carter raised his eyebrow. “What are you talking about? Whose application for performance did I reject?”
Mey stared at him for a moment before she let out a sigh of relief. “No, nothing…”
“Hey, are you hiding something from me again?”
“It’s not important anyway…” She laughed. “You haven’t bought the ingredients for dinner, have you?”
“No, what would you like to eat?”
“Um, how about salted fish?”
“Salted fish? I remember you don’t like pickled food… It took you many days to finish the fish that the little girl gave to you last time.”
“I like it now. What? Do you have an opinion?” May interrupted him and then reached out her right hand to him. “Do you want to come with me or not?”
“Of course.” The Knight took her hand without hesitation. “Anything you want.”